please be informed..

that i have a new blog..link me yeah?thechemicalreactionsinthebrain.blogspot.com

Ive been posing a lot these days

Im still smiling no matter how much you had hurt me.

Look at my sad eyes and tell me if you really did loved me

The world would be a better place without you
Look!i don't even care if you're not around.

am i really alright?

i asked myself the same question over and over again..
am i really alright ah?
owh wells..i came into the conclusion that this stupid heart break thing is God's way to get me ready to face the outside world when im older...
im only fifteen...who knows there might be more heart breaks.

God,don't do this to me..i dont want more.

School wasn't too bad today..i totally ignored his presence and...i think my heart is 80% mended..Go Stephie!20% more..as in,when he started his flriting shits,i didn't really bother loh.

must be Tze Chi...

i was talking to her like 24/7,how to notice ass holes flirting lah?its a very good thing kay!even if lembu wasn't talking to me,i wasn't bothered to give a damn about what he was doing.

bytheway, 3 jasmine learnt reproduction today...damn fun!why wouldn it be fun with Tze chi,Ked,Vinesh and Jee ken's presence?i was laughing the whole way through...especially during the part where kedric said the word inserted.Tze and my face was like...so weird.of course lah!we had to tahan laughing weih!or puan grace will totally screw us.she doesn't like people laughing during her lessons..very the serious..but she told us a damn lame joke about sam the sperm.

i'll tell you one day lah..but its pretty lame..gosh..Tze chi being a cow thought it was blowjob.ryte..

ive got to go already..i have tuition to attend...*yawns* boring...wait..Namisha will be there.YAY!ive got a victime=)
*evil laughs*

being single is hot.

I hate tuitions..

Ive got to go soon..and see!im blogging=)

proves how much i love my blog.

Gawd..give me another chance...i totally did not study my vocabs..and she is testing us on it.GAWD.cruelty to kids lah...

im really sticky now and a nice hot bath will do the trick.

Wish me luck..Pray that teacher will be a little forgiving and give me another chance..

i hate tuitions lah.Who doesnt?

People-people sekalian

i totally did not type the last post..it was my lembu lah..who else?

but i have problems too.

Guys are fuck holes.

im like so hurt right now..okays..we shall name the him jumanji.
guess whatt?he was playing with my feelings all these while.greatt.
i treated him so kao seriously..and him?

i should had listen to andrea..She warned me...she never did approved
us and i was really annoyed of her..im sorry tai jia wei.

OWHMYGAWD...he is such a fuck hole..i seriously do not understand!
What did i do to make him dislike me?He is so unpredictable lah.First,he
was showing some signs..next?being very cold to me.

yo dude!what do you want from my life?

im like...left hanging on the thread.head or tail i don't know..it happened just
like that.

He's such a fucking player lah.I never felt so sakit hati ever.Well that's cause i
was so stupid to believe he was the dude im going to get married to.and i treated
him so damn seriously..

owh Jesus..why me!?!?!

and guess what..tomorrow will be the last day of school and then it'll be the holidays=)
meaning...no jumanji for 10 days!and im going for church camp..yay!

owh Lord,please heal my broken heart during camp.

damit..i don't want to attend school tomorrow =(
hear me say it again

i don't want to fucking go to school tomorrow.

but well..Tze is going to be there..DUHH.so..it wont be too bad.

by the way,i still have feelings towards him but im aware that soon,my mind is going to kick him out.

Like owhmygawd...they are together!

they=my good friend + the dude i like

Get the fucking link?

My life is pretty fucked up.Lord,im waiting for you

to come heal my broken heart.

Broken,Once Again.

Yeah,you got that right folks.Broken,not once,not twice.But uhh,the billion'th time.Hell to the no,I am not bullshitting.Its true.

I guess 20 months doesnt mean that much to you huh?Instead,you go bother bout some 3 month relationship that has just been doubled-over.No,Im not comparing myself to her.Why should I?She aint no better than me.And Im no better than her either.She hurt you,you broke down.You,being the asshole you are,hurt me.I broke down as well.Now you know how I feel,but still you wouldnt even give a fucking fuck.Well,yeah,why should you?After all,Im just your Ex-Girlfriend hmmm?

Well,I was the Ex-Girlfriend who was always there for you thick and thin when no one else would even bother to deal with the bullshits you bring to yourself.Im not going to mention all the shits you got yourself into and were unable to bail yourself out of it.It would practically drop the good name of guys.Im always saving your fucking arse!Not even a thank you from you.You practically took me for granted when all I ever did was love you.I didnt want to see you hurt.And the most stupido thing ever is that I thought you would never hurt me!But in the end,you kicked me to the ground,sucked out all my oxygen and left me lying there crippled and bleeding.Have you got no heart?Oh yeah,thats right,you dont.Bloody bitch,you.Just because I call you a bitch,doesnt mean I hate you.I dont.For now,at least.

And you,how dare you play with my feelings.Its bad enough Im hurt already,must you bruise me even more?You have been giving me false hope throughout the whole 2007 untill this year,2008.You're so lifeless lah.Stop giving me false hope when you dont want or need me anymore.It will save so much of my time and feelings as well.You wasted so much of my feelings do you know that?SO MUCH.i cannot explain to you how I feel right now but trust me,I feel terrible.Like shit,you understand?Worse than shit lah,a shit that has been stepped on.All this while,I thought I was going to be a happy girl,but i was wrong,Im going to be that girl who pulls her long sulky face everyday wherever she goes.Sheeesh.How miserable can life get.

Sad for a guy like you to top things off.Jia Wei told me I was blinded by love.Well honey,you're wrong.Love practically dug my eyes out from its sockets.Steph,my dear kerbau,you said love killed me mentally.You're wrong once again,I am dead mentally and physically.Its no wonder I go kukubabooboo out of nowhere.

LOVE IS TERRIBLE WHEN EVERYTHING'S WRONG.

SHEEESH.

Proves how much i love her=)

No one can replace my cow

Ok...maybe it might be a little late to upload these but...ENJOY.

Kedric Kwan is going to murder me.
ok..i shall explain lah..tze and i were too bored so we decided

to do something fun.

Tze going hyper as usual..
awwww...so cute..that's my doggy..and THAT's MY BED!
Leon and Kedric
look at them lah..sighs..
That's my LEMBU

yeah..leon is a kid.
we look so sweet together.that's why she 's MINE LAH!
hahahahahaha...that's Vinesh
got sofa don't want to sleep..stupid lah you.

no...actually he isn't cute lah
and who said girls were immature?
well,we were suppose to bincang about the drama thingy but...

sweat.
Whose phone was i holding arr?

I've Waited All My Life.

True


I wont talk,I wont breathe,
I wont move till you finally see,
That you belong with me.

You might think I dont look,
But deep inside,
In the corner of my mind,
Im attached to you.
Im weak,
Its true.
Cause im afraid to know the answer,
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster.

I've waited all my life,
To cross this line,
To the only thing thats true.
So I will not hide,
Its time to try,
Anything to be with you.

All my life I've waited,
This is true.
You dont know what you do,
Everytime you walk into the room,
Im afraid to move.
Im weak,
Its true.
Im just scared to know the ending.
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line.
To the only thing thats true.
So I will not hide,
Its time to try anything to be with you.
All my life I've waited.
This is true.

I know when I go,
I'll be on my way to you.
The way thats true.
I've waited all my life to cross this line.
To the only thing thats true.
So I will not hide,
Its time to try anything to be with you.
All my life I've waited.
This is true


Yes,Its true.I love you.

I AM SO PISSED!

okay..okay...bad words alert.

You slutty bitch...idiott little potato!

Who the hell do you think you are?
Do you think my lembu and I care if you have a million and one exes?
You put them up as if cows on parade!
What is wrong with you?
and by the way....DO YOU HAVE BRAINS AR?
can you like...use it for once?

eventhough you freaking broke up with them..padan muka you!
you should know that will have another girlfriend right??
so... why the hell did you post the pictures?guna your brains sikit lah..what if their girlfriends come across your idiotic blog?how would they feel?imagine looking at a picture where your boyfriend is with another girl.only idiots like you will enjoy viewing the picture lah.WHY?because you change boyfriends like changing baju only!

by the way...if you're not in a relationship with some guy..stop hanging out with him.you might send wrong vibes towards him stupid potato!and you should know she still have feelings for him...so stop flirting lah!idiot.

hey,we have more exes than you..you can't beat us sucker.

i can't believe it lost my temper..for a guy..

isn't this hot?AH-64 Apache

The AH-64 Apache is an American all-weather day-night military attack helicopter and is the United States Army's principal attack helicopter, and is the successor to the AH-1 Cobra. The AH-64 is a twin-engined helicopter with four-bladed main and tail rotors. It has a crew of two which sit in tandem. The main fixed armament is a 30 mm M230 chain gun, it is also able to carry a mixture of AGM-114 Hellfire and Hydra 70 rockets on four hard points mounted on its stub-wing pylons.
Designed by Hughes Helicopters (as the Hughes Model 77) in response to the Army's Advanced Attack Helicopter Program. McDonnell Douglas purchased Hughes Helicopters and continued the development of the AH-64 resulting in the AH-64D Apache Longbow which is currently produced by Boeing Integrated Defense Systems.
United States Army operated Apaches have been in action in Panama, Gulf War (destroying 500 tanks[2]), Afghanistan, and Iraq.

isn't this hawt?It has a twin engine weih!how powerful can that get?best thing is that,there is a chain gun. read my lips..c-h-a-i-n.owh my gawd..so CHUNTED!fuyohh..it destroyed 500 tanks...not bad not bad..if only i can own it.America,will you give it to me for my birthday?

owh no!im emo again...

i noticed that when im emo..i tend to drink jollyshandy.Jolly shandy only what!

eventually my mother found out about it..and she drank the last can.greatt.

Shandy doesnnot make you drunk...believe me.i dont know why but it makes me

forget about him.i tend to think about other craps lah.

Lembu,kerbau is emo too.

i miss him lah.im so CONFUSE.the whole universe is asking me to forget about himbecause he is taking me for granted...but i cant!tze...i finally understand you.

You can't just stop liking a guy just like that.Love doesn't come and go any minute,any second and any time..Lembu,i know you still have feelings towards him and im not going to force you to stop loving him.it's up to you..

i am going through the same problem as you lah.i can go insane thinking of how much he really loves me,when my love to him is endless..i cannot stop loving him because im taking it seriously.but the point is..is he taking me seriously?or am i some toy to him?

i gave him a present during Valentines..did he give me anything?just a stupid hug and a poem..what was his excuse?i don't celebrate Valentines.i don't want anything special..i don't want any damn expensive things..all i want is him to call and wish me!

in school,he never acknowledge me as someone special but he tells me im special in messages.he doesn't even talk to me as much as he talk to her..what the heck?

im a girl with a fragile heart.