Muaxxiez...

What?posing while chatting?

too much too much

Hey there!kekekekekeke

bloob bloob

Im not born a model la

Being forced

Retarded Angel

guess who tied my hair?

Gothic...

I lurve my personal hairstylist

The effect....

Stephie kena made over by her doink cousin

The process

What i did last night

...Elaine's guinea pig=)

ChanEttE..And I

Im TERUK in photography

Chanette and I

Chanette and I

I LuVeE her

Megan and I

She looks really pretty now

My best friend=)

during prom..

Prom was...

good...Dressed up like a stupid emo doll.Mum asked me to put make up but JANGAN HARAP.I will totally look emo-ER.I can die wearing heels.I wore mum's..How did she managed to walk?my mum rocks.My mum did my hair...nothing much la.Blow dry...yea.She thought me how to walk like a model...And why should i listen to her?just walk larx!

-In the car-

As usual...I started cam whoring,with mum babbling at the background.criticising every pose i make.Then her naggings started.

• No boyfriend,girlfriend...
• No drugs..
• When you feel dizzy,start drinking lots of water.

Mc fetched me to Armada Hotel...OMG MC LOOKED SO HAWT! She even put make up.no i didn't,as i think its a waste of time.

I didn' sit with Mc because i found my friend,Chanette.Chanette was looked cute..I mean,she is always cute.Sitting next to her was FUN.we camwhored...I'll upload the pictures when she sends it to me.I looked weird in all of the pictures..seriously.

The food was ok ok la.I didn't eat much because i was malu to walk in out and out of the ballroom to grab dinner.Chanette ate alot!Well,what to do...It's Chanette what!

-GAMES-

Owh wells,like any other anti social girl...i Didn't take part.Hello?it requires a guy partner kay?

-DANCING/CLUBBING-

My favourite part..I went HIGH.I found out that clubbing can be really dangerous...You can actually forget youself.I almost hugged an ugly fella..SERIOUSLY!It was fun..i was shaking my ass and all...yea...I completely forgot myself...luckily i did NOT strip...-i think-

This is retarded..as if they would employ me...

Hello!My name is Stephanie...My friend,Joanna and I saw your advertisement in the newspaper..We would like to apply for the part time mailing assignment.Well,we are only form two..next year form 3...currently 14 years old...But we are used to microsoft word and excel.We are kind of desperate for a job to make use of our holidays.Thank you so much.

My brother is the sweetest human on earth...

My brothers sent me an email:

Step,

Just to share with you. You may not know this, but for me now (being a father to Amanda), she is the most important thing in my life now. Everyday I works so hard & take on all kinds of pressure at work, so that my family can live by & try my very best to give Amanda the best I can afford.

Ever since Amanda came into my life, I now realized how much our parents have sacrificed for us all. They have gone through the worst & still show us the "bright" side of life & protected us form the worst.

You may not know this, but only now I realized how much our parents loved us all; especially you. I know for a fact the Dad loved you the most, because I myself is also a father to my Amanda.

As for Mum, she may be "nagging" at times, but she treat us all equals. Ever since you were born, she have given the best (money can buy) for you. She had bought you a very expensive cloth from US, which is now Amanda is using & other electrical stuffs.

So, always remember no one lives forever. And once he or she is gone, you will one day miss his or her "nagging". Example our 6th uncle (Uncle Yee Loong). I am very sure that both Francis & Dennis wished they have treated him much better when he was around. I guess it is too late to say "sorry" or I love you now he is no longer around. This guilt will stay with them for the rest of their life's.

As for Eric, I hope one day he will realized his mistakes...I hope it would not be too late for him as in the case with Francis & Dennis (they can't even say sorry or I love you to his dad). If he does not learn, he will then need to live with the guilt for the rest of his life......

Erwin

Happie BurfdaYy

MC CASSIE.....=)

Happieeee burfdayyy...

What time is it?

COUNTDOWN....I'll be off to school in 50 minutes...Damn..i had not even bath and have lunch.Maybe i'll go to school without lunch..My parents ditched me..They went to Kuala Lumpur and LEFT ME AT HOME!and like...they did not give me money to buy lunch!eeesh...why am i even blogging?ive got to go already.Byeeee....Im off to school!

Yea man...I can't wait to go to school=)

Did i just say that?yes..i did...I don't know why but i suddenly desire to attend school....Well,ITS NOT BECAUSE OF

• the bloody idiotic teachers
• the kononnya beautiful school
• the yummy*pukes* food from the canteen
• *him*
• Audrey

For them i'll be there...

1. Joanna Kam Mun Nee
2. Caroline Kung Sze Li
3. Chong Shu Yi

You won't imagine how much fun we had yesterday...These people are c-r-a-z-y..Their jokes are...erm...-no comment-We were like laughing + laughing + laughing = twisted insanity[thx esfern]Jo came up with a stupid game...Which was rather retarded.It requires writing our names on a piece of paper as well as writting two words...Question and answer.Then,put it in the middle...Jumble it up.Each and everyone of us had to grab one..Then,write a random question on the paper..After that,put it in the middle again..and jumble it up...AGAIN.Pick one...and without looking at the question,write your own question's answer...Last step:read it..

Reading part...

laugh...laughs..MORE LAUGHTER...leads to...insanity

-stephie luves them-

I found Melvin's Tokyo Drift DVD

Thank you God!I thought i lost it or threw it away..Well,i turned my room upside down and found his stupid DVD under my bags.How did it get there?I thought i disposed it on purpose already?I shouldn had pinjam it from him larx.well,that was donkey years ago though,when he was really nice.Now?pooh...That fella change a lot liao loo..Since i broke up with Darryl[melvin's best friend/gay partner]he treats me as if i spoilt his badminton racket[his girlfriend is badminton]Darryl has the same problem too..I.S i call it..I.S = Immaturity syndrome treat me like air only..Just because i broke up with him?-SWEAT-Guys are so kecil hati.You people better change..or... Jangan harap you can get girlfriends..I brought the stupid DVD to school..Hid it in my file larx...During science class, i asked aunty carly to pass it back to him.She proscratinated as usual .Her alasan was:There are so many nerds around him.After they report to teacher.Well,quite true..Didn't i said before?They are kaki bodeks.Obviously,they want the stupid teachers to puji them "wow..you are so honest."plus all the other craps larx.Guess how i returned the damn DVD back?

rrrrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggggg....[recess time]

With most of the nerds in the class,hanging out with my math teacher..I pretended to be a nerd.*Stephie sat down there and did her English tuition homework*-such a disgrace-

3 minutes later....

Like a thief,I scampered to Melvin's place...I drop the DVD in his bag.-Man,he should change his bag larx..the compartment is like SO small...can't put much books.And like..its like so old-

2 seconds later...

I turned back...and adjust the position of the DVD.I put it right in the middle of his books to avoid those nosy prefects to TER-lihat the DVD...Then,i'll get in trouble..That stupid Melvin will blame every damn thing on me..as usual larx..you never come across GUTLESS guys merx?

Lord is wonderful...He had done so Much to me=)

Yesterday,I got my stupid results for P.Moral...You won't imagine how dumb i can get.I FAILED it...Congrats Stephie..Helo?even Audrey got 40 something ok?I got back other idiotic results too.As usual,didn't score well.In school i acted as if i achieved high marks for every damn thing..meaning i was smiling all the way larx.The whole class was like down when they got their P.Moral marks except some..-Joanna,Brenda and I-Man...i was trying NOT to show it larx for God's sake.You think im happy to fail Moral?I don't feel like telling the whole world that "man..im such a damn loser..I FAILED moral!"That is SO not the way to live life alright..Don't tell the world you're a big damn loser..Instead face the fact that you had FAILED moral..Do better the next time..simple as that right?.....I wished.....

In the car...as usual..Audrey and i are as silent as mice..I kept lookin at the sky.Amazing..look at the clouds,they come in so many different patterns.It amused me like crazy...Look at God's creation..He made all these just for us!

*SUDDENLY*

2minutes away from Audrey's home...tears started to pour.I kept appologising to HIm...I said "im sorry,im sorry,im sorry..I dissapointed You with my marks"I hope Audrey did not hear me saying that..Anyways,after dropping her back i cried even worst..Strangely,daddy didn't say anything..My mood was like BAD.very bad...

*At night*

I browse through my phone as usual..and found this verses in my notes....Psalms 1:1-6...i went like "ei?i where got so holy wan?keep verses in my handphone"I felt the urge to check it out so i got my bible..goodness...the verses encouraged me like MAD...It's about true happiness..Studies isn' everything....I'll explain later...i have to go to school now.Goodbye.i love Him so much

Memorable night of 22nd of October

During the night of the 22nd of October...i actually talked to Him.Him=Jesus Christ..Talk=Pray..Usually,i pray for the sake of praying..Yea,im such a meanie.But...everything changed.I did not continue that stupid character...Something made me sit there and talk to Him.I cried...I don't know why.I started crying...Yea,what's wrong with you woman?I prayed for everyone in my life...my parents,my family,my good friends,the nation...I made a promise too..."God,send me and i willl go...I promise to help them"HE is a real God living inside me...Living inside everyone,in fact.It's just that we have to open the door of our hearts and let the KING OF GLORY come in..

I don't want this!

I don't want this...I don't want THIS!i DON'T WANT THIS!

[merajuk-ing]but i want that musical piece of wood...

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I prefer the semi acousitc...

I really want a semi accoustic.My mum supposed to get me one for my birthday.Actually,during the day she said "I'll get you a guitar larx"...I doubt it.There was this thing in my heart that told me..."dream on,bay-beh"When it comes to money...my mum is a different human being.Anyways...4 days ago,my mum showed me a digital camera printed on a catalogue.It costs RM0.00..You need points to exchange the cam.Yea,you guessed it..She asked me if i wanted it.SO...obviously i wanted it larx!who wouldn't?Dissapointedly i asked "this is my brithday present horx?"Mum nodded with a guilty expression..I don't know what to say about this..Sighs..What?she got me a present which is free..alright..Hmmm..Im speechless.It hurts me though.I rather she pay for a plate of curry mee for my birthday..furthermore..the camera isn't that important.I WANT A SEMI ACOUSTIC!

Today...Today..AND today

Only half of the school came today.Well,my dear Joanna came.FUYOHH!That girl actually sacrificed her ASTRO just to teman me in school.Poor her..I'll be crapping my butts out and she will just sit and listen.Bet she'll be thinking "I'd rather watch my chinese dramas than listening to your real life dramas"Well,we got back most of our papers today.Science=38%[yes,im dumb.gotta problem?]English=83%..when..

Hong came to talk to me

Hong :14 November!(weird way to start a convo ei?)
Stephie :ok,ok..ei you going arx?(I know what he was talking about)
Hong :No*shakes his head*
Stephie :Why?
Hong :I am working..
Stephie :*gives Hong "the look"* Where?
Hong :Toy City
Stephie :*laughs her ass off*

Hong walks away.I called him back "OI!Hong!come back here!" and...

Stephie:really arx?You working?
Hong :Yes!
Stephie:How much they pay you worx?
Hong :4 bucks an hour.
Stephie:Waaaaaaa*opens her mouth...big big*

Hong walks away..music plays:I can't explain this feelingI think about it everydayAnd even though we've moved onIt gets so hard to walk away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)Walk Away, Walk Away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)*Stephie gets back to reality*

Joanna and I looked at each other.A brilliant idea rose."Yea man!We shall work too"Im pretty sure mum would allow.come on,it's money weix.When it comes to money,her first answer is always a "YES"But..I have to persuade daddy too.Bet he will ungkitkan rape cases reported.To him,money is not the first priority.Instead,it is happiness and safety.No worries larx...as usual,i will act pathetic.That's how i persuaded mum to allow me to go for church camp.I got back my class picture today..At last...after waiting for like what?a million years?I stood next in between Pei Jiun and Michelle.Finally i believed what mum said about my hair.My frinch looks like curtain!I can't even smile properly...-BLEK-Overall i suck in the picture.Well,I thank God that i stood next to a pretty girl.Seriously,Jiun looks so sweet...So,when guys are attracted to her beauty,they can spot me too..

I <3 diz song...

Your Word is a light unto my pathYour Love guides me through my darkest nightAnd even though sometimes Your waysI cannot understandI’ll never walk away because my future’sIn Your handsI don’t care what people will sayI’m running after YouI won’t turn back and go their wayCoz I’m running after YouYeah I’m running after YouI’m running after You(I will run to You)I don’t care what people will sayI’m running after YouI won’t turn back and go their wayCoz I’m running after YouDon’t matter what may come my wayI’m running after youIt’s You I’m following todayI’m running after YouI’m running after You

Yes,Lord..I don't care what other people say..Im running after You.Their words do not influence me in the walk with You.I have FAITH in you,Lord.Strong faith...Nothing can break it..You rule my world every single second of my life.Thank You Lord.In Your most wonderful name i pray..Amen

I STEPPED ON A LIZARD!

OMGudnezz!i STEPPED on a lizard...*screaming madly*well,it's kinda rubber-ish.eeeeeeeeew...pity it larx...i hope i did not hurt it.Im afraid i stepped on it's head.What if i stepped on his body?What if it gets internal injury?OMG...I murdered a lizard!How heartless can you get?[can't i just shut up?It's just a lizard]Sorry,over reacting...as usual.Helo?It's Stephanie Thong Poh Yin.*Stephie wakes up*=>OMGOSH!i stepped on a freaking lizard!Why didn't i kill it with my bare foot?WAIT.repeat please...bare footed?Hell no..Way too disgusting.Imagine all it's sticky sticky stuff stucked to your foot...SHUT UP STEPHANIE!

SHIT.I think i lost Melvin's dvd...

MATI...DIE...SEI....i think saya telah meghilangkan Melvin punya DVD.Later,i am going to turn my room upside-down to look for his stupid dvd.He wants it by Tuesday.Guess what he messaged me on Saturday "Bring my dvd on Tuesday"

1. I wanted to pass it to him a couple of months back during school and he was so scared to take it.As if will kena rampas or something.Gutless fella.
2. He thinks im his maid arx?Bring on Tuesday means must bring.
3. He can never say please.very POLITE of him.

I don't care.We'll see if i have the mood to give your damn DVD back.I hate gutless guys...

just came back from dinner...

For dinner,mum and i went to KAYU.As usual i got scolded by my mum...because:I wanted to eat in MURNI ,SS2...So,i told mum i knew the way.AND...in the end,i had no idea where MURNI was .Mum lost her temper because i said this=>"sorry mum,i really don't know where is it..im sorry.im sorry"I clearly remembered whatever i said alright.Mum started scolding me like a mad woman.seriously...and i?seating on the passengers seat,pretending to listen BUT...my mind was far far away in Stephie-land.In the end, I came back from Stephie-land by a Stephie AIRLINE...and told my mother to go makan HOR FAN.Suddenly,i just felt like eating mamak-ish food.So we went to KAYU.Of course my mum did start babbling,BUT...bersabar,i told my self...She is my mother and no matter what i HAVE to RESPECT her.

Exodus 20: 12

Honor your father and your mother,so that you may live long in the land the Lord your God is giving you.

Anyways...I had cheese nan while mum had...WAIT.Pasal you ke?That's my mother.NOT yours.neways,since i got so much free time..........mum had...NASI KANDAR.i hear you say "cheh..nasi kandar only marx"I had teh-tarik too...regret larx..i shudn't have drank that.I got PMS so like,tea makes you get more..Well,i was SUPER hungry...i could even eat a COW...so,i ate a little of mum's rice...Then, i felt hungry AGAIN...i made mum share roti tisu with me...It was very embarassing.First,the people saw me eating my CHEESE NAN...Then,NASI KANDAR...After,ROTI TISU...I went RED in the face when the ROTI TISU arrived...My mother was like..."Girl,you see...people looking already"I looked around and saw a lady looking at my ROTI TISU and I.For God's sake larx...it's very RUDE to look at people eating you know!I just turned away...feeling so degraded...humilated..sighs...Patience,Stephie...They are just jealous that you can eat a lot...After that,we went home lorx.I almost got killed in a car accident.Mum was like speeding.well,she was talking about her problems with my stupid sister in law.[patience stephie]Mum was pretty mad.When she is mad,she speeds.And...i hate it because i am TOO YOUNG TO DIE.Guess you guys find it weird because i use multiple colours to blog this post.just feeling random.Is there a problem?

Life can NEVER be boring

Actually,how can life be boring?you have so many problems to solve so how cna that happen.If you're bored,you are dying for something to happen.This goes to me,Stephanie Thong.Not too long ago..i found out these statement through Him.Because..i love complaining..."life's boring larx" "i rather die than being bored my whole life"I think God is punishing me...hahakz...The whole world is like crashing down on me right now.It's so heavy...the problems are SO heavy.Ive got oral presentation on wednesday..Im afraid of being despised.There are many reasons to support that which you don't have to know except Him.But like i said with his powers all things are possible.When i get up there and start talking,im taking control of the whole class.I don't give a damn anymore!

Dress shopping..Whee =)

Today,i woke up at...10 a.m..thought that mum and i would be eating lunch in OU but..."we're eating porridge for lunch,then we shall go dress shopping"i was like "what the??righttt...okayy...porridge..."I didn't really ate lunch...ate about a couple of spoons then threw away.yea,i waste alot.Neways,on the way to OU mum was like babbling about me not to get married and be single in the car.obviously i didn't say anything...i was sort of in another world thinking of my *project*.I mean..im not going to say anything about my future yet...It's God's will..he knows what is best for me.THIS IS THE FIRST AND LAST TIME IM GOING DRESS SHOPPING WITH MY MUM!her taste is terrible..hahakz..sorry le.Still,i appreciate her company laaa...MUax.love you mummy.Owh!while browsing through some clothes in a shop.Some huamn being went "BOO"..Who else can it be?Mc Cassie lorx!l.o.l.yea..and she's eating McDs for lunch.Whee.I got what i liked in the end...A black gown.I had to wear an orange tube because it has a very low cut.so its like black and orange.yea... VERY NICE COMBINATION eh?[being sacarstic]

[screams] no need to do presentation today

Yea...no presentation.Christine came and she did her presentation well...Hers was about Malaysian food.She passed her O.P.Anyways,today was a boring day.WAIT,a very relaxing day as well.Mum went out for "mahjong"[screams]Sorry larx BUT..the minute her car drove out of the house,i went MERDEKA!My dad didn't say anything though..he understands me like i said before.As usual i went online,supposed to find out about "families" BUT was doing other things..can't recall.I went online til 3p.m...watched television til 4p.m...went to my room to practice my "not finished" O.P...45 minutes later,dad dragged me out of the house to watch a basketball match at the ss3 basketball court.I bet he regretted bringing me there.well,i DID enjoyed the match but i kept complaining about this player and that player.dad went "ya","ya","ya" and "ya" all the way.I didn stop talking weix..enjoying every minute of my life critisicing those human beings.My dad was only interested in the referee part.yea..the whistle and all.well,he was a basketball referee last time...decades ago.yea,when he was a hottay.I didn't know he was sent to Singapore just to get the whatever referee thing certificate.Hmmm...didn't know i wasn the only cool fella.Back to the match,I had fun!dad and i sat in the rain just to witness the match.if it was mum.."aaaayaaa,go back la.raining alrdy."The match ended in 20 minutes.yea,so sad.OMGUDNESS...many hot guys there too.Im sure dad heard me mumuring "owh GOD..he is so freaking Hawt"..But im sure he understands..come on man..he had dated before kan?after that,went back lorx...

I can do everything through him who gives me strength

Philippians 4:13....This bible verse really encouraged me a lot.I have a lot of problems in life.But He had accompany me through these problems together.I know that He will always love me for eternity.I love him more than life.Do you think i will stil be in this world if it wasn't for his greatest love?praise Him.He is a real God living inside me.Thank You LORD for being with me during such times.
Stephanie Thong Poh Yin <3 Jesus Christ.

Im scared..

Tonight,i'll be doing an oral presentation about family.And what time is it now?1.30 pm.Tuition is at 8.00..I haven't finished collecting all the informations.Yea,great.Im a last minute girl by the way.Im really scared.You won't imagine my feelings now.Surely,this presentation is goin to be screwed up like the previous one.The previous presentation was about candies.Teacher said it was too short and not enough effort had been put into it.That's the reason why i had to re-do it.a.k.a i failed O.P la..I must have faith in myself.I must have faith in God.Stephie Thong...YOU CAN DO IT!Phillippians 4:13-I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

Thank you GOD

For such wonderful church friends.It was Him who sent them to brighten me up.I love you guys=) this is what i call a true friendship.Never had such a perfect friendship.

I can't bear it any longer.I have to spit these out

It was raining just now..so i had to go offline before i get murdered.Im pretty worried now.tomorrow night,im going to do an oral presentation for my english tuition.Hell yea..i can hear you say "what kind of tuition is this?"Overall,it's for my own good.In college,we will have to do it frequently.The topic of my presentaion was candies..but after watching an extremely touching series show,i decided to change my oral presentation to "Family".I have no idea how to do this last minute but with God's power,all things are possible.I trust in Him.Was i supposed to explain why i hated staying at home so much?Here I go.Like i said my favourite days are Saturday and Sunday because i get to see my good friends in church as well as have fun.If i was at home,all i could get is scoldings,swearings,naggings,screamings..every mean things you guys can think of.Agonising huh?Imagine how much i went through for the pass 14 years.Yes,it can be that bad.Don't blame my mum...blame it on me.All she wants is a perfect teenager.Too bad...because no one is perfect except HIM.The point is she never understands a teenagers life.Sometimes,when im not in the mood[PMS,love problems]example:not eating,not smiling,being moody,listening to music,lock myself in the room...My mum will start scolding me for being rude.What the heck?man,not only you have problems.I have my own problems..instead of her talking to me as well as discussing my problems,she just hurts me.It hurts you know.Im crying while typing..thinking why aren't there someone as understanding as Him to talk to me at home.My father is a good man but he is sick.I can't drown him with all my problems right?That wil be too selfish.I can't bear it any longer.I don't want to face my mum.My heart grips with fear whenever she is near me,thinking "OMG steph...what is she going to say now?"I hate it!i hate my home!People out there i know it's for my own good but not to that extend?My father truly understands me.I hate school because i don't have friends in school.That is the main reason i always ponteng school.My father is totally alright with it.Duhh.My mum on the other hand?we fought because of this issue.She hit me ok!she hit me on the head!never will i forget that night...never.I told her she never understood me.I mean since when?before i can explain...she will start scolding me.how do you want me to explain.when i ask her to stop and let me explain she will say im being rude.Ok...all this i don't mind.i don't care and bother because Jesus Christ will always be there during my suicidal times.BUT,what i hate about my mum is she loves to condemn my religion.Whenever i do anything wrong she would say "Is this what your church teach you?You pray for what?all these are hypocrisy!!"these words hurts me like crazy.I can't bear it.She doesn't know how much HE means to me as well as who am i without my saviour.
Father LORD,i thank you for my mum even how much she had hurt me and never understood me.LORD i commit her in YOUR hands LORD.Bless her abundantly in whatever she does.O LORD i pray that one day You would touch her LORD.Let her accept you in her life.Let her know that You died for us sinners on the cross.Forgive her LORD for condemning Christianity.I know You are a MIGHTY GOD..forever and ever You will be..Thank You Father for being there for me as such hurtful times.I love you.In JESUS's mighty name i pray.Amen.

I can't stand it any longer.I really want to get out of this house.Saturday and Sundays are my favourite days because i'll be out with the youths.Alright..the reason im blogging these stuff here is because hardly many people view my blog.So,this is like my diary.Owh God.It's raining....thunderstorm too.I better go off line before my mother starts swearing at me like crazy.

Love life...Maybe it's not the right time

Dearest ____________,
Do you know how much you hurt me?Whenever i look at your contact in my handphone tears will start streaming down my cheeks.Whenever i think about the sweet memories we went through together,i will turn suicidal.May i ask?what in the universe did i do to make you hate me.Please do not see things superficially.You have to see the whole thing before opening your mouth.You hurt me so much and i still had feelings for you.What more can you ask for in a girl?i am willing to sacrifice my credit.I am willing to do anything for you my dear boy.Again and again you hurt me without appologising.I bet you don't even know that ive been crying my heads off for the pass few months.well,im better now though.Even if we no longer had *the thing*,i just want to be friends with you.Please don't let other people's words influence our relationship.You have your own brains.Maybe im not as pretty and flirtacious as her.Maybe im not as sporting and smart as her.But,i have a good heart,[not being paranoid]I turned down other guys propose just for you.What more can you ask?it's your lost by ignoring me.I don't care anymore.You had hurt me enough.there no more tears for me to cry anymore.All i can say is...you are the losing end and i hope you know that you are losing a reali friend.I had learnt my lesson.Guys had left a big scar in my heart.Im not ready yet.LORD,tell me when i am.Im willing to wait no matter how long it will be to find a suitable guy for me.I don't want to be hurt again LORD.Ps:TOTALLY NOT MY EX!

Today was fun

i went to OU with the youths from my church.We HAD to play bowling.Thanks to Mr.Ivan.I reminded Justin a million and one times that i TOTALLY suck in it.Guess what?i embaressed myself like crazy.Don't ask what happened but i just did.MEMALUKAN!!!im SO humilated..ISH.Well,its alright la.Patience...lalalala.Cassy was awesome.she really encouraged me after the embaressing incident because i didn't want to continue the stupid game.Let's not talk about it.I had waffles with chocolate and bananas.YUMZ..but i didn finish it all,to full.Rianne came.yes,sighs right?my day..all spoilt.I couldn go xiao with cassy because he was next to me..kacau only.hahakz.spoiling mu lunch,he said...my arms are hairy...this and that.sobz,that fella never learns to NEVER HUMILATE A GIRL.it's ok...patience.L.O.L.after that,we went to play fusball!!or was it foosball?i dont know how to spell la.Anyways,me and cassy really enjoyed ourselves.We kinda/almost trashed Rianne and ivan.I went to the batting cage too.f-U-N!!Going outings with youths spells out F-A-N-T-A-S-T-I-C

Worship was awesome!

Though some mistakes were made.LOL.Today,we learnt about patience.Yes,people...I will learn to be patient ESPECIALLY when you all bully me.Rianne exposed my *another* name.Yea,how "thoughtful"..Talking about rianne,he somehow reminds me of my brother,Erwin.ooo....erwina...Sorry,im crapping.During lunch,I was sitting the same table as Feli-BOO,Eugene,Makarina and Y2K.No offence,but first i thought it would rather be boring but it din turn out that way.Feli-BOO was having a good time bullying me.EXACTLY!supposed to be I bully her but vice-versa.Im not going to share what she said.As usual Mc was asking me all kinds of stupid "what if" questions about relationship which will never happen.Yes,i still love her.Suddenly she came up with an extremely stupid question.It went something like this."what if you saw makarina flirting with your boyfriend?and Feli-BOO and Tom came passing by?in my heart i was thinking...WHAT KIND OF A QUESTION IS THAT??IT DOES NOT CONNECT..for GOD'S sake.Then,this Feli-BOO campur tangan."No need to flirt wan"She actually agreed that flirting comes in naturally.i was like what the?man..this is Felicia..she is not that type who like talks about this stuff.Feli-BOO...i will still love you

Cell...

I screwed up worship today.Man,it sucked weix.Never will i play the guitar again.NEVER.sighs..Anyways,Ivan,Mc,Makarina,Benkit,Zi Jie,Daniel,Justin, Aaron and i went for dinner in KAYU.I had maggi goreng and ice lemon tea.Wanted teh ice but after mc say i copy her..dadadadada.Dinner was fun...FOR Ivan,Benkit,Zi Jie,Mc and Aaron.I was sitting there like a doll..getting bullied.sobz sobz.Actually,im alright la.Im not that siu hei alright.They don't mean it either.Well,God taught us to forgive and forget.so,obviously..i shall apply it in my life.guess who started it?The "Owh SO Innocent BENKIT".he looks very innocent but he ISN"T.duhh..he started the me n daniel thing.Well,i was telling him n Ivan about the last day of school in Taman Megah.Daniel gave me a hug and a gift...i mean..so?but strangely...i don't find him annoyin during his younger days.He was nice to me.I still remembered after daniel was standard 3..he came over to appologise to me if he had been mean to me.he said sorry la.but he did anything to merx?can't remember.Another thing...during last year's HARI SUKAN.He was standard 6,he belanja me like crazy weix.Showering myself with tit-bits...drinks..all this sweet memories,i will keep in my heart.Now,he is a total different Daniel.Mixed with the wrong company i guess..i miss the old daniel..shut up people..it's not love but friendship.Geez...i went overboard!What the hell is wrong with me?Back to Benkit...He made everyone think i like DAniel.EEEEEYYYEEEERR.The point is i WILL NOT marry a guy younger than me.I WILL stick to it.I WILL!Then,the other daniel..King's brother made a poem out of the sirname THONG.sweat..well,i didn know he was in to poems too!anyways,the daniel daniel..lol.yea,me and the daniel we were talking about shares the same sirname too.He is Daniel Thong Poh Kuan.Im Stephanie Thong Poh Yin."Please GOD don let me be related to him" I got to go already.Mum babbling at the back ground

I had Mc Donalds for lunch

yummy..but MCDs really disappointed me.I called them at 12.50p.m.And they arrived at my home around what?1.20p.m?what took them half an hour to come?the nearest Mcds is in Kelana Jaya.sighs..that fella even forgot my chocolate sundae!i didn't murder him though i felt like doing it..come on.it's MCDs kay?no mcds no life.remember that!My brother totally dissapointed me today.Yesterday,mum told me he was going to take us out for lunch eventhough she wasn following,as she's ill.And today i totally became a laughing stock.At 11.45am,i woke up.was super reluctant to wake up.Hello i slept at 4 something alright?i had my beauty bath.20 minutes later..i emerged downstairs wearing my body glove tee and jeans.Everyone was in the t.v room...everyone = mum,dad,bro,sister in law,niece..Mum was like "Are you going out today?You wear so nice for what?Where are you going?"I mumured"Shit..Owh..i thought i wanted to follow daddy to GIANT"My face was like HOT...i ran upstairs like a mad chicken and changed.What was my brother thinking?suddenly ffk like that.And HE told me that it's not the world alone that revovles around me.Yo erker...think before you talk larx.sweatness.As usual i was ignored.Mum was busy puji-ing my niece for every single thing.Me?at the corner reading newspaper.I couldn tahan and my eyes became red when amanda was eating a slice of bread.She walked over to my mum..most proberly she knew my mum was going to puji her AGAIN..Guessed what my mum said?"you're eating bread...ohhh...with cheese..clever girl"i was like what the hell?it's just bread..you don't have to like...nevermind forget it.Im just jealous proberly.Lack of love from my mother.

Like my layout?

i <3>im so excited.-NOT-Everytime,when he takes my family out to makan...i will be so leftout.Im serious.Yes,I tried breaking the ice but my brother gives one word answers.so..i dont want to try anymore.And...i don exactly talk to my sister in law.She lives in another world and i live in another planet.Get what i mean?hmmm...amanda..lets see.she's alright la.but i don't really play with kids.Though she's 4 years old but she has a high level of ego.well,she's brought up in *that kind* of family so obviously she will be influenced.poor girl..OWH SNAP!i think i lost my shuffle's cable..No battery already,ive got to charge it and i need the cable!!I really really need it!to break my boredom when im left out..Owh erker...please,please would you take us to MCDs for lunch..yea right...as if.Amanda is a SUPER DUPER HUGE fan of MCDs too..she collects all the toys..i think she has the whole collection.Im so proud of you my dear niece.someone who actually understands the happiness of being in MCDs..the food,the atmosphere and all?MCDs..how can i live without you?seriously.WHERE IS MY DAMN CABLE!ish...

Maggi mee is bad for health

Im trying to plant that in my mind.And im eating maggi mee right now.yea.cool eh?This is the third time im having it today.One for tea,another for lunch and now...for supper.YUMMY.i even drank the soup.Because mum fell ill,she didn't really noticed me today.More like lying down...watching tv.sleeping..Daddy didn't bothered about me too.he was busy taking care of mum.Awww...they really look so sweet together.especially when daddy took cared of mum.When i grow up,i want a white guy who has the exact personality like dad.Though sometimes he can be a little stubborn but he spoils me like mad.gudness...i saw this picture of dad when he was really young.proberly 28 years old?he looks SO HAWT.it was a picture of him skying on the water...what sport do you call it already?i forgot.sorry.yea..anyways..sorry went overboard.was suppose to talk about.MAGGI MEE.im telling you...im going to suffer from hair loss.

I thought i was gonna die

Last night..no im not paranoid.While talking to Ivan about his "so called" girlfriend...i felt as if i was breathing through a straw.Mind you...i suffer from asthma ok?anyways..yea...i couldn't breathe.It was about 12.30 am dat time.I just tried making myself preoccupied.Chatting with ivan...karina...to ignore that sudah mahu mati sensation.But it didn't go away..it just eased a little.I wanted to go sleep already but i had to finish *my project*.Tahan here and there...until 2 a.m?when Karina went offline...i went off too.Suddenly,i felt like someone was sitting on my chest.It felt heavy though.I started breathing heavily.You won't want to be in my shoes that night.Switching off the lights downstaird,i heard my mum getting out off bed.Like a mad cow..i ran in to my room.I felt worst man...i started feeling drowsy,nausea plus i couldn breathe properly.weezing occured too.I really really though death was going to overcome my life.As usual i started to get myself preoccupied...So,i composed a poem.will,blog it one day...half way through[i did not cover myself with a blanky] i felt cold and had to wear a jacket.in the end i gave up,i went to pray...I told him i didnt want to die tonight because i had many things to settle.With my heart gripped with fear i went to sleep.Guess what?i woke up the next morning!!!

Boring Thursday

Today was the first day of out Raya holidays.Due to my late night doing *my project* i woke up at 1pm.I wouldn have woke up if it wasnt for my cacated alarm clock.I didn't set it though..it just rang.Mad eh?lets see..i had chinese biscuits and porridge for lunch.It was rather eeekey.Yes,i did complain.working on that though.Then,daddy wanted to go to GIANT..groceries..i tagged along.I too had to do a little shopping for *my project*The trolley ended up with my snacks = maggi mee,chips,maltese,dadadada.i guess maybe next week dad will go there again.we reached home at 3 pm.there was nothing do at home so i started practicing my keyboard.i finally realised that my keyboard is everything to me.What i meant is..im kinda sticked to it.Like Mcds...yea.After waking up,i practice my keyboard...Come back from school,keyboard again.At night,keyboard...You can ask my neighbours if you don't trust me..Back to..there was nothing to do...yea,after practicing keyboard i started doing my *my project*I kind of killed it with my marker pen.I hope *the teacher marking it* will understand because i suck in art.

Great i failed science

Yes i did..38%.I wonder what will my parents say?well,i don't think they will murder me but just feel dissapointed.they are quite resonable wan.Ivan visited my blog and kind of commented on my "i hate this i hate that"attitude.I really must change man...seriously...OWH!!i didn't know jeremy was into poem writting too...hi5 man!

Mad people

Who's idea?

My niece and i

Auntie and niece...sweeeet

i found this plushie at home...

so..he's mine

Me,mum,and niece

Obviously im the hawtest in this picture

no apologies

No sex before marriage!

Me and mummie sayang..duin our thing...

sweet memories

I missed the times...

sobz..i miss the times

My fave couzzie and i

Cassieee...tunggu i!!

Cass's idea

Veronica and i

1st picture:Me and my best friend

Me and my best friend!!
I know i have a gangster face.

Me,Mc Cassie and sumi

Taman Megah's tanglung night

What Stephanie Means

S is for Sappy
T is for Talented
E is for Exquisite
P is for Patriotic
H is for Hip
A is for Alert
N is for Nutty
I is for Insane
E is for Emotional
What Does Your Name Mean?http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyournamemeanquiz/

The Keys to My heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything!You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts.Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship.You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

Friends are awesome?

Do friends really matters in my life?lets see...not really.I mean,maybe a couple of them.sighs...sometimes i feel jealous of other people you know.They have real friends.Me?what have i got?My friends takeme for granted.When they are in need,they come to me.After that,they don't even know who the hell i am.this really breaks my heart.all i want is a perfect friendship.well,nothing is perfect in this world you know.I got to admit,i do have real friends..maybe one or two..Maybe i should appreciate and not ask for more.sighs..i hate school man!why do we look forward to going school?because we have friends in school..picture yourselves laughing,chatting,eating in class together with your friends....what a wonderful school life.sighs...i thank GOD for the true friends i have and i will always appreciate them.loveyou guys!